Friday, 14 July 2017

Riding the Wave of Procrastination

So, as you will have seen the past few months, I have not been blogging an awful lot.

And sure, I've been busy with university work and my actual job and musical theatre on the side.

But there is something else always lurking in the shadows...


This has become a bit of a dirty word. Either it makes people believe that you are lazy and do not have the ability to stick to anything, or it is a word that gets thrown around by "the kids these days" to make them seem cool and relatable. But my procrastination comes from kind of a darker root.

Up until I was 16 years old, I was meticulous with everything I did in my life. I spent hours on pieces of homework that really didn't require it, I would study for exams way longer than I needed to, and I would pretty much make myself ill with the worry of being perfect. My GCSE's took all of that energy out of me, and by the time I had finished my A-Levels and left school altogether, I was burned out.

This is a real thing that happens to people. These days, there is so much pressure to be perfect and achieve the highest grades or be better than everyone else in your life that your body literally shuts down. It only takes so much and then its hasta la vista, motivation! 

And that is what happened to me. At 16, I was juggling school, dance lessons, my book blog, choirs, orchestras (yes, several), musical theatre, and even a volunteering position with kids. This is too much for a young person to handle! (Or anyone of any age.)

I'm 20 now, and my motivation still hasn't fully returned. I'm not dealing with as many things these days, and some of the pressure is off, but I procrastinate a hell of a lot. I make plans and end up doing something completely different, because the thought of doing the thing that I planned to do can be too overwhelming. Sometimes, its easier to watch youtube videos for 8 hours and shut your mind off. 

Fortunately, I am getting better, but its been a slow process. Today, I decided to reply to all of my outstanding emails, update my bookstagram, and write a couple of blog posts. And I did it! This is a big achievement for me even if it doesn't feel like it. When my body shut down, I developed severe anxiety and depression, so feeling motivated is a rare and beautiful thing. Having the ability to stop procrastinating is a major accomplishment.

So what is the point of this post? Its actually kind of a PSA and apology. I'm sorry for not being as active as I used to be, but my body is healing, and life is always getting better. And for anyone who is experiencing the same as me or have not heard of it, here is an information page:

I'll leave you with a song to brighten your day.

See you soon (hopefully)!

Thursday, 6 July 2017

My Ideal Reading Space (ft. Arhaus)

Hi everyone! Today I have teamed up with Arhaus to bring you this blog post, all about my ideal reading space. They do gorgeously chic homeware for all around the house, and lots of their stuff is perfect for creating your own ideal reading space!

Okay, so I have a couple of ideal reading spaces. The first one is when I'm on a plane. Think about it; you can't go anywhere, and unless you're in a really fancy futuristic plane you don't have wifi, so checking your phone isn't an option. The journey itself is usually quite quiet, and the tranquility of the city lights below you create the perfect atmosphere for settling down and reading a book. Plus, with the lack of wifi you aren't preoccupied with wondering what's going on in the cyber-universe, so you can really get stuck in to that bestseller you've been dying to read. 

Photo courtesy of Arhaus

I get that some of you probably hate planes and so this would be a nightmare situation for reading, so I'll share another place that I love to read - hotel rooms. I personally love hotels, because every single one is different. You are having a new reading experience with every hotel room you stay in. Whether the bed is a blast-from-the-past four poster situation, or a modern cushioned number, it makes the perfect ship to sail the waves of your imagination.

If you're lucky, your hotel room might even have a writing desk, where you can peruse books at your leisure (or even begin your own masterpiece!) in a new country or city. If you're not a big writer, a hotel's bedside table can be the perfect buddy for your book, and since its right next to the bed it means your book is always staring at you, begging to be picked up again!

Photo courtesy of Arhaus

A book is my favourite travel buddy, but its the decor of the rooms I read it in that make all the difference. A beautifully furnished hotel room can become a home away from home.

Do you have an ideal reading space?

Let me know in the comments!

I hope you enjoyed this post - be sure to check out Arhaus for beautiful home and outdoor wares (follow their Twitter for updates) and come back soon for another post!