Sunday, 31 December 2017

My 2018 Resolutions

Photograph courtesy of @alexlloydphoto on Twitter

Now that a new year is around the corner, I thought I'd do the thing. The resolution thing.

I have written down my resolutions for the past few years, and I haven't done too badly! This is because I kind of cracked the code early on - if you want your resolutions to last, make sure they're achievable. 

My resolutions for 2017 were:

1. Remind myself that I am worth it
2. Stop saying I am bad at things that I am not bad at
3. Allow myself to feel more

If you want to read the reasons for these resolutions, click here.

Personally, I think I did really well! 2017 was a lot about recovery and building myself back up again after 2016, which was one of the toughest years of my life. I am feeling much better within myself, and I am just about to be taken off my anxiety&depression medication completely after 3 years of being on it, which is something I am very proud of. 

So, with a lot of self-growth in 2017, what am I aiming for in 2018?

1. Prioritise family

I have been pretty selfish this year, going out with friends constantly and not focusing on family. Although this was part of the recovery process, it got a little bit out of hand. For me, family is very important and I have a good relationship with them, which I have come to realise is not a common thing. So, in 2018 I am going to make an effort to spend lots of time with my family, because I know that I won't have them around forever. 

2. Graduate with a 2:1

I'm writing this down just so I have a solid target to work towards. My degree has taken a backseat to literally everything else in my life recently, so giving myself an ACHIEVABLE goal will help me remember what I'm working for. 

3. Start my English Masters

The decision wasn't taken lightly to do a masters degree, but I love studying English and I really enjoy the structure that education brings me, even if it is just a couple of hours a week. I'm going to be doing it part-time, so I'll have time to work and earn a bit of money along the way. Maybe even write that book I've been going on about for the past 5 years? 

4. Spend less time on my phone

Not that I'm addicted to my phone, but like most people I keep it around me and check it frequently, much like a bad habit. I'm at my worst in the morning - I could stay in bed for hours checking all of my social media before I even start my day! My goal for 2018 is to just turn my alarm off in the morning and get up straight away, and not check my phone before I have breakfast. Any notifications that came through whilst I was asleep can wait another half an hour!

5. Travel

I didn't leave the country in 2017, and for someone who craves new experiences constantly, this isn't good! There have definitely been times where I have needed to get on a plane and create distance between myself and situations, and it just didn't happen. Part of it was money, and part of it was because I had no one to go with. This year, however, I turn 21, and I am going to be coming into some money. Its not enough money to splurge on multiple trips, but it is enough to be able to book a few days away, and still have a considerable amount in the bank. Most of this will be savings, but I have promised myself a little treat, and if I can get another friend interested in a couple of days away then I will be more than happy. A friend is moving to London soon so I will be able to explore down south a bit more this year, but there is nothing like hopping on a plane and seeing more of the world. 

What are your new years resolutions for 2018? 

Let me know in the comments!

And have a lovely first day of the new year, if I don't speak to you tomorrow.

Saturday, 30 December 2017

Things I am Proud of in 2017

Add 'becoming a mermaid' to the list...

Hello! It has been too long. But I have done a lot, and to prove it I am going to list some of the things I am most proud of in 2017.

Because who doesn't love a positive post and some self-love?

Backstage before performing in 9 To 5

1. Performed in 2 musicals and a variety show, in which I sang a solo number
2. Performed 'How Far I'll Go' from Moana for Princess and Superhero day at work, and gained respect from my colleagues that I didn't previously have from them
3. Got a second job, this time in the entertainment business!

I was a mermaid AND a unicorn this year!

4. Made some lovely new friends
5. Let go of the toxic people in my life
6. Improved on my make up skills and looked great in lots of photos

Photo by @alexlloydphoto on Twitter

7. Got my own flat overlooking the city
8. Supported myself financially for the first time
9. Coped very well in both of my jobs and university
10. Met lots of drag queens from RuPaul's Drag Race, and even worked with some of them

Max from RuPaul's Drag Race - she was the sweetest!

11. Become emotionally stronger, whilst still being kind
12. Allowed myself to explore my more emotional side
13. Became a more honest person
14. Became almost totally independent from my anxiety/depression medication
15. Wrote lots of poetry (hopefully you'll see some in the not-too-distant future)
16. Became chair of the Staff Student Liaison Committee for my university's English department (I am head of the meetings and work with the staff on improving the department)
17. Read more autobiographies and became more interested in people generally
18. Improved on my film knowledge (something I've been wanting to do for years!)
19. Conquered my fear of exams (almost! I can be in an exam room full of people without freaking out)
20. Allowed myself to live without worrying about other people's judgements

These were some of the things that stood out for me - did you do anything similar?

Let me know in the comments or on Twitter at @bookfangirling what you did to make yourself proud this year!

We all need to remind ourselves sometimes that we have achieved more than we think.