Monday, 1 January 2018

Responding to my "Dear 20 Year Old Me" Letter

A couple of years ago, I wrote a post, kind of like a letter to my 20 year-old self. I haven't looked at it since I wrote it, as was the rules, but since I'm turning 21 in a week I thought I would return to it and see if anything I predicted actually happened.

I wrote this letter in 2014, which was 4 years ago, so I'm going to read it and get back to you.

Well, here I go. And if you want to read it, here it is.

*After reading the letter*

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Oh. My. Gosh.

Can I say I am shook? Or will 17 year old me not understand that word.

Oh my gosh, 'shook' wasn't even a word when I was 17. WEIRD.

My 17 year old self just made my 20 year old self emotional. I used to think I had learnt everything about the world at age 17, but that letter is full of innocence. 

As you probably read, I had made quite a few predictions. Let's see how many I got right!

1. "So, you're 20 now, huh? I bet you thought you'd never get into university, but here you are. Two thirds of the way into your Philosophy and English Literature course. Did you get into Bangor? Or did you decide on Birmingham instead? Either one is fine, by the way, I'm not judging you."

I did get into Bangor, young one, but I didn't much enjoy it there. After my first year, I transferred to Liverpool to carry on with the same degree, just starting at 2nd year. Luckily, I really enjoy it and am planning to do a Masters in English here!

2. "Let's just hope you've actually made a few friends from all of that baking you've been doing for them. And if you think they're just there for the cake, they probably are."

I made lots of lovely friends in both universities, and one of my best friends to this day was from Bangor. So although I didn't like it there, the people made my experience worth it. Also, I did minimal baking. Apparently all you have to do it be yourself.

3. "If you're in a relationship, I'm extremely surprised and you will be too I suppose."

I'm not, and I haven't been throughout the last 3 years. Weirdly enough, I've had offers, which surprised me. I just didn't accept any of them.

4. "About the anxiety thing... don't worry about it. That's the worst thing to say to somebody with anxiety I know, and maybe you've 'grown out of it' by now, but if you still have it and all the weird things it does to your body then there's always something you can do about it."

My anxiety has really improved! And my body doesn't react as badly as it used to. I haven't 'grown out of it' by any means, but it is true that there is always something you can do about it. It just takes time, and luckily I've had time.

5. "I hope you know who your true friends are now."

Oh, don't worry little one, I definitely do.

6. "Do you still watch all of those youtubers you watched three years ago? Do you go to Summer In The City every year with Kendal? Have you been to Vidcon yet? Are the family members that are alive now still alive? I hope the answer to all of those questions is YES."

Woah, slow down there! That's a lot of questions in one go. I do still watch Youtubers, and most of them are the same. I haven't been to any convention yet, but I am hoping to experience SITC at least once. And yes, thankfully the family I had 4 years ago are still with me. That's the one I'm most grateful for.

7. "I don't even have to ask you if you're still blogging, because the answer to that is obviously a yes."

Ah, young Hannah. You know me so well.

8. "I'm guessing you are no longer on a chocolate ban as you are as I'm writing this - in fact, you've probably just dipped your spoon in a jar of Nutella that you call 'dinner'."

I have eaten chocolate today, but I banned myself from Nutella! It was becoming an issue.

9. "You have probably dip-died your hair blonde (or perhaps blue if you were feeling adventurous? I know that was always a little teenage dream of your's)"

I did dip-dye my hair blonde! Blue isn't my style anymore, but I am going auburn soon.

10. "...and have your hair almost down to your bum,"

Correct! I did until late this year, anyway. There is such a thing as too long, young me.

11. "...and love your mint-green tea and weird clothes."

Love mint tea, also love fashion. Not sure what you really meant by weird clothes, but I do love a graphic tee from time to time.

12. "If you have your mother's eyes, you will have glasses by now, but that's fine because it makes you look more geeky, which is totally the look you're going for."

Wrong! Still no glasses. I don't know how I've gotten away with it for this long.

13. "And most of all, you still love books, and is known in university as that strange girl who is always reading books."

Of course I still love books! However, I do not constantly have my head in a book at university. I'm sure some people see me as strange, but not for this reason. I would love to have the time to read more, though.

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Why not try writing your own letter to your future self?

See you soon with a new post! It will be book-related next time.